TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT?

Feel like being challenge by this irresponsible and stupid person. Never know this kind of people exist. ~Not knowing what he/she supposed to know, and just pinpoint on you whenever thing happen. This kind of people make me lost my temper, lost my EQ. I feel so stupid.

Yeah..this is the challenge and pressure that I should learn to handle. It will make me a better person in both personal life and work if I am able to 'settle' this person. However, to take this challenge, I will work like hell, I need to work OT, I need to sacrifice my personal time. Is it worthy for me to do so??

Argh...seems like iIdon't have much choice. It's part of my work. Anyway I also need to take up the challenge. Yeah..he is winning but I know deep down I am the winner.

One day he will 'padan muka'..haha...sorry for cursing ppl here. ;P

The Day That I Feel Fed Up!

I wish for a vacation or even a break again.

I feel like leaving my current job.

I don't feel happy when I achieve something new in this job.

I don't feel excited with every new thing I am gonna learn here.

I feel so fed up.

I wanna stop all this.

I wanna find a new environment.

Can I? Dare I?

I am so in dilemma.

I am so in anger.

I am so in suffer.

I feel so fed up fed up fed up.

I wish to shout out and tell everybody in the office I wanna quit, then I just leave..though this would only happen in my sweet dream..

RGP Lens

Ever heard of RGP lens?

RGP stands for rigid gas permeable. GP lenses were first introduced in the late 1970s; they are actually a newer technology than soft lenses. Most GPs incorporate silicone, which makes them more flexible than PMMA. And silicone is oxygen permeable, so oxygen can pass through GP lenses, resulting in greater comfort and better eye health. GPs can also provide better vision, durability, and deposit resistance than soft contact lenses. They can be easier to clean, and since they're long-lasting, they can be less expensive in the long term than soft lenses.

Wow, enough with the long story, blah blah blah...

A month ago, my left eyes got inflammation due to wearing soft lens for long duration. I was 'force' not to wear lens for few weeks but spec. Now my eyes fully is recovered. However doc said due to the difference between my both eyes's degree is too huge, one side see thing bigger than the other, that's why I feel headache easily. I have 4 options,

1. Wear spec - but I continue to get headache

2. Wear soft lens - but I risk to get the inflammation

3. Wear RGP lens - last longer and help to reduce the power

4. Lasik - plan to but to be consider later

Today is my second day wearing the RGP lens. It's kinda hard and I can hardly open my eyes. Everytime I blink, the vision become blur. I think I will need some time to get use to it. Hope this solve my problem till I can do the lasik. :)

Mudah? Senang?

Ya, saya bercadang untuk tulis blog dalam BM. Betul betul susah la, saya sudah berkesal. ;)

Mudah? Senang? Sudah 5 hari saya berasa tertekan sebab program saya tak betul. Saya tak ada selera untuk makan, tak ada feel untuk berjenaka, tak berlalu nak makan...(sebenarnya tak la serious sangat tapi ada la). Semalam, saya nyaris kemalangan sebab asyik teringat akan program yang bodoh itu (tapi bukan salah saya, kereta itu tiba tiba potong ke lorong saya). Gosh, the language is soooo horrible!!!

Nasib baik hari ini saya berjaya menyelesaikan tekanan/masalah saya. Nampak senang macam kacang tapi bersusah payah saya buat and berfikir. Kawan kata 'programmer is like god, one click can make magic happen'. Tapi saya rasa 'when cannot make magic happen, programmer will be like dog'. 'Dog atau God'?

Dalam ringkas, saya berjanji pada sendiri, saya tak nak jadi programmer untuk kerja seterusnya. Saya mau kerja yang lebih senang and mudah. ;)

Tak tau kena mengena dengan topik Mudah tak, tapi ada perkataan Mudah atau Senang, boleh ho kawan kawan...

STRESS

How I wish I am on vacation..to a place where there is no stress, where I can relax...

Yeah, stress is haunting me lately. I get mad even with little stress. Feel sorry to those around me, where I may hurt them sometimes.

I am stress working..

I am stress financially..

I am stress finding my soul..

I am stress finding my direction..

Some say live simple life. But I was wondering how simple can life be?? Even a housewife can feel stress because of junk of housework, taking care of kids, decide meal for dinner...Who said you won't feel stress living simple life. haha...

Yeah, stress is everywhere. But I feel calm when he hold my hand, when I rest my head within his hug...I hope that one day I will have less stress. ;)

Wedding Diaries 3

~05-Nov-2008

Today I pronounce both of you as husband and wife...

Status = Married ;)

Wedding Diaries 2

～30-Oct-2008

等了好久， 今天终于来临了， 我们要去拍照了！！！
好兴奋， 好紧张， 好担心。。。

我们很 kia su 的， 拿了很多东西， 出发拍照去了。。。

当化妆师告知我们今天会去 Port Dickson 拍外景先， 我们可吓了一跳。 （以为会拍 Indoor 先）

化好妆， set 好头发， 穿好衣服， 我们一群人就出发了。 （阿公， 我， 摄影师Jim， 助手无人岛与化妆师Lisa）

第一次， 穿得这么隆重， 上公厕。。。

第一次， 穿得这么隆重， 在海边拍照， 顺便成了别人的旅游景色。。。

第一次， 要在大庭广众下化妆， 顺便娱乐‘马’的眼睛。。。

第一次， 发现原来拍照是很开心的， 什么烦恼都忘了。。。

第一次， 可以没顾虑的， 在别人面前抱着阿公， 亲阿公。。。

我们是真的在笑， 真的好享受这过程, 真的好甜蜜。。。

今天， 真的很累， 但是很 sweet。。。

～31-Oct-2008

原本是继续拍照的， 但是Jim病了。

我们也乘机休息， 累了。 而且我两个手臂都红肿， 去海边拍照所付出的代价。

也趁这时候想想应改进的地方。

原来我下巴很短耶！ （每次还笑妹妹）

还记得Jim说

‘新娘子， 你人瘦瘦， 为什么会有两层双下巴。。’

‘新娘子 驼背。。。’

‘新娘子不大会笑。。’

真是可恶！！ 害我睡觉都发梦拍照。。。不过这也是事实， 阿公也经常这么说。 哈哈。。

希望第二天会更好！！

～02-Nov-2008

开始我们第二天的拍照。 今天一点也不紧张了， 轻松很多。

Jim带我们去KTM Station拍外景， 不过会比较 adventure， 因为我们是要偷偷进去的。

哇， 我好紧张！！ 当一走进去时， 我的心跳得好快。。。

今天无论是indoor或outdoor， 我们都顺很多了。 可能对Jim较熟， 也知要作什么， 不会像第一天这样笨笨。

Jim也快手快脚的帮我们拍完。 阿公一直跟我说， 珍惜， 要完了。

今天， 很累， 但也很开心。

或许十年后， 我们再拍一次吧！ ：）

也真诚的感谢Jim 帮我们拍这么有感觉的照片， 让我们享受整个过程， 留下美好的回忆。。

也真诚的感谢Lisa, 把我化得美美， 让我也能漂亮（哈哈， 真是臭美！）， 把阿公’化‘得俊俊。。。

Good Bye Hero

Good Bye, Hero...

I miss the time you bite me..
I miss the time you chase me..
I miss the time you get mad while playing..
I miss the time you cuddle with me..
I miss you so much..

I know you have gone to a better place.
Be a good boy and we will miss you.

Good bye, Hero

未来

在Port Dickson拍照当天，摄影师讲了一些话， 令我不断的思考。 （这摄影师什么来头呀！）

大约是， 新娘子是一个很害臊的人， 对自己没信心。 因为我驼背， 拍照时也对自己没信心， 应该是对生活很害怕的人。。。还叫我要对自己信心！

厉害吧！ 短短的相处， 之前对我毫无认识的人， 可以对我做出这样的评语。 可想而知， 我是一个这么没自信的人。 不怪得工作上我多努力， 做得多好； 生活上我所提的， 建议的， 都没得到好评， 因为人家对我没信心。。

所以未来我要对自己有信心， 不要像现在这样萎缩， 害怕。。
未来会更好!
希望没离题， 呵呵。。。

Angry, Not Angry

The day we registered for marriage, he is so down. (Hmm...sound like he is not happy to be married)

He told me it is due to work...

Since the day we are 'legally married', I am the one who is so excited to talk about anything, to always be cheerful. I remember he always tells me, 'I will be happy when I see you are happy too'. However, these doesn't work out as I expected. He get angry easily, he is too sensitive in my joke ...(Can't you differentiate whether I mean it or it's just a joke after all these year??). I am just out of idea, maybe I should just shut my mouth. (Yeah..that's what I did last night)

Work is hard, work is tough for everybody. Happy or sad, you gotta go on with your life too. Why not just be happy? Why let the work control your life? Where does all your smile gone?

Wedding Diaries 1

22.03.08 ~He proposed ;)

Subsequently, still wonder wanna wed this yr. Decide to postpone till next year, until the economy get better, but somehow...

04.08.08 ~Set the Wedding date --> 03.01.09

24.08.08 ~Shop for wedding photo package. Went to Love Vision, Vogue and Keep Gallery. I have made my first decision in this wedding, to sign with LV (not Louis Vouitton somehow).

01.10.08 ~Submit application for ROM at Buddist Maha Vihara, Brickfield.

02.10.08 ~'Shop' for gowns at LV. In 3 - 4 hours, have tried for soooooo many wedding gowns and dresses. Thanks to Nicole for being so helpful.

03.10.08 ~Shop for wedding stuff at Pavilion. He is so patient to shop for whole day with me. As usual, I bought more things than him. hehe... I get my wedding shoes, bobbi browns...

11.10.08 ~Shop for the wedding card.

18.10.08 ~Visit Bankers Club and love the place so much. We booked the place as our KL Dinner Banquet on the 14.03.09. Thanks Hong for recommending us the place.

未来

After cracking my head and chasing by the group for so many days, suddenly something blinking and that's is. Here come our new topic.

未来!!

We have 梦想, now let's prepare for our 未来.

梦想

Living in this ''big big' and busy city, I almost forget or I've already forgotten about my dream, my 梦想.

I dream that one day I would never have to worry about $$$..

I dream that one day I can be a super corporate woman...

I dream that one day I can travel overseas to work...

I dream that one day I can own a business...

I dream that one day I can have my dream house...

I dream that one day I can own my dream car...

I dream that everyday I am 28...

Yeah..I got so many dreams but it is all so materialistic...

I change, because the environment change me or because I have to change???

So lost living in this city, but I don't feel like leaving it

So lost living in this city, as I turn into another person

So lost living in this city, I am so lost, lost, lost...

Where are all my dreams...

好久不见

唉！也不知是谁出的鬼提目，真是难倒我了。
然后也不知有几百年没写中文了，真是难倒我了。唉！

好久不见！想了很久，很久。 A lot of things come across my mind, and finally I make up my mind at this moment……
好久没看到他为我们的爱情花心思了。因为工作忙吧。。。
当我看到打着领带的他，手拿着一束花，更跪下向我。。。。(不必多说了吧)
突然好感动。。结果’ 不明不白‘的答应了。。。

也好久没看到他为我的生日花心思了。因为‘没心’ 了吧。。哈哈哈！
他说今年要送我心意为礼物，我就一副‘等着瞧，看你有什么玩意儿‘的脸给他看。
怎知那心意害得我留下眼泪，抱着他，一句话也说不出。。。(哪有生日弄人哭的！)

再来，就是他的心意蛋糕 (自制的oh)，跟妹妹一起给我的surprise。。。我真是无话可说。。。

想跟你说谢谢，想跟你说好久不见，这样的你。。。。

Welcome Me!

First of all, welcome myself to the blog world.
Half force and half willing to join...hehe

Second thing, Happy 2nd annivesary to my sweet sweet home!!!

Good luck to myself! :)