That's ME

Came across the below when I was reading this self-enrichment book bought few years back...

Reactive people are often affected by their physical environment. If the weather is good, they feel good. If it isn't, it affects their attitude and their performance. Proactive people can carry their own weather with them. Whether it rains or shines make no difference to them.


Reactive people are also affected by their social environment, by the 'social weather'. When people treat them well, the feel well; when people don't, they become defensive or protective. Reactive people build their emotional lives around the behaviour of others, empowering the weaknesses of other people to control them.

I think that's quite true about me being reactive. So I am gonna start small from today and learn to carry my own weather..

Pregnant?

Do I look pregnant??

Why interested in my tummy?? Why not other questions after marriage rather than "When do you want to get pregnant?", "Are you pregnant?" bla bla bla....**sigh**

I am a......

Stop thinking

The saturday that I wake up suddenly thinking it might be time to get ready for work, and soon realize it's a saturday...

Can't sleep after that, work stuff suddenly hunt my mind, only I realize I am actually stress up, that's why I get my back and wrist pain constantly this week. Or it's just a sign of entering 30s?

The morning that I keep thinking about my work, thinking about my pay make me feel sad. There is so many other things to think about and why am I still stuck at the same thing over and over again. Praying hard that I will lead myself to the destiny this year, but the hope broke when I read the news about the fortune teller saying it's a bad year for Monkey and those in 30. Argh...not again!!!

Stop thinking please...

2010.01.01

Looking Back

Looking back, it has been an amazing, excting, busy and crazy year.

A year where I got married. It has been more than 10 years, but everyday I wake up feeling great to find my long life soulmate beside me. Everyday is a precious day.

A year where I got so crazy at work. Long hours, weekend at work and for once in my life I work from 830 and reach home the next day 600. A year that I got all the disappointment at work, for being spending 70% of my time at work, there is no salary increment.

A year that I travel long distance, Hong Kong. Considering it as our second honeymoon. It is so memorable.

And a year that I lost a family member, ah pek. It is of unexpected, which shock everyone in the family.

May you rest in peace, you will be always in our heart.

Looking forward, will movie 2012 become reality? I have been asking myself this question and I seems like believe it may actually come in that day. If it is, I should start thinking to quit my job and enjoy life to the fullless; and I want to be with my hubby when the day come, imagine we would be at home, sitting at our sofa watching TV until the end of the world.....

K, enough of nonsence. Foresee that it's gonna be a tough year for me particularlyin work. I have make a tough decision which I am unsure of until today, everyday I am asking myself if it is right. Anyway, tough job make me a tougher person.

Also, something that I have been thinking so long but never kick start. Hope and wish that I will make my move.

Hope that everyone has a good year ahead. Goodbye 2009, and welcome 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Friday the Christmas

Merry Christmas!!

Sis and boyfriend are here. Having a nice gathering with family. The last time the four of us - sis, me, siang and jun, gather together was during March. It's so great to get together...

Thursday

Christmas Eve!! Long weekend is just round the corner!!
Another busy day, no lunch day, hoping to complete today to-do-list.
Somehow I still save some for the weekend but great that I have 3 days of break.

Wednesday

I just wonder why, no matter how I completed each tasks on my to-do-list, it never grow lesser but longer.
One by one, I completed it daily. Sometimes I feel frustrated, sometimes I feel happy.

Today I strike off the tasks peacefully. Tomorrow it's going to be another long list again..

Tuesday

What you think might not be what you get..
Should we don't even think about it or should we just dream about it...

Monday

If only I know what to do and what I want precisely...

I am just overloaded...Nothing is fair and nothing is unfair at workplace...

Responsibility

As I grow up, I learn that the responsibilities that lie on me grow as well.

The responsibility of being a daughter, to take care of my parents, to make them happy when they are still around. But I do not know how to answer it when my mom ask me with an upset tone "Since you will be coming on Dec, you won't be coming back for next year chinese new year then". It will only happen next December and next next Chinese New Year...

The responsibility of being a sister, to take care of my little sister and brother, to keep remembering to say hello on and off by making sure that they are still well., which I might forget or to be exact neglect sometime...

The responsibility of being a wife, to take care of the man, to know and care of how he is doing everyday, which I am not doing so well. He is the one who take care of me, who take care of the household...

The responsibility of being a worker, to serve the company with all your attention, with all your time. Because client and money are always the priority and therefore meeting timeline is a must. Without the pay, what are you suppose to live on? Therefore, I spend most of time to be a worker, even meaning sacrifying your weekend. But in fact, I can be replaced within 5 minutes; my absence won't give any impact to the company, things will just move on as usual, nobody notice nothing...

Why the hell meeting timeline is always priority!!

Why the hell spending my time, risking my health, neglecting those around when I can be replaced in just 5 minutes!!

Why the hell is it so hard just to let go!!

Why the hell trapping myself at hell though in my heart I am dying to runaway!!

I just wish that life can be as simple as once I used to think...

Friday, 9th October 2009

Today, I received a sms saying 'We are going xxx tonight. :)'

In my heart I am thinking okay, maybe I should ask what time and plan my time to leave. So I reply the sms, saying ' What time, does the we include me?'

Sadly to say, the 'we' does not include me. I am crying in my heart, not because I did not get to go, but something that I realize today and miss out yesterday.

Recharge

Recharged myself with these four days of 'long' break!! I have been not thinking about my work.

I was in Singapore during the weekend; partly to attend hubby's ex-colleague's wedding, partly to window shopping. It was not a super amazing trip but somehow refreshing. I get to see how Singapore wedding is, though not so different with the traditional chinese wedding here. Apart from that, I was enjoying myself window shopping at Orchard Road. If I get to earn Sing Dollar, think my house is gonna overfload with branded bag.

The last two days I was in gym, golf and meet me eldest sister. It is super relax and it make me think that today is Sunday, in fact it is Tuesday already. Just 3 more days of working then another break.

Happy me!!

Snoopy

I guess not many people know that I like Snoopy so much.

Today, hubby show me a series of picture about a Charlie Brown Cafe. It is so fabulous and I just can't help myself but swearing that it is a must visit during my Hong Kong trip.

http://www.charliebrowncafe.com/

Being Ordinary

It has been a very routine weeks or months for me. I do not know if anyone is going through the same cycle with me or it's just only me and me.

My weekday
~ Wake up ~ Work and Work ~ Sleep

My weekend
~Wake up ~ Ocassionally gym ~ Sleep ~ Eat ~ Sleep

8 or more hours of sleeping, and the rest spend either in-front of my lovely PC or TV.

No excitement at all, it's just an ordinary life for an ordinary woman like me..

Unwanted Items

Am casually browsing through the online shopping website and found this useful blogspot.
http://www.prelovedblog.blogspot.com/

It says~

"This is NOT a blogshop!! This is a place where you can submit your pre-loved items (worn clothes, shoes, accessories... ) or mistake purchases, or any other reasons... that you want to get rid off... :(Send an email to me to post up so that others can buy them. IT IS FREE OF CHARGE!! Each reader is only allowed up to 5 items in each email. Anyone interested to purchase your item(s) will have to email you about it.All you need to do is email me the following information @ prelovedblog@gmail.com

Your name:
Your email add:
Items name & descriptions (eg. measurement, material, color... ):
Photos: *Remember to insert credits for the photos you use as attachment in the emails.*
Price:
Delivery method: Postage/COD charges and places
Reason(s) of reselling:"

Ladies, if you wanna get rid of certain items in your wardrobe, you can turn it into cash instead of letting the items rest in peace in your wardrobe forever. Good Luck!! :)

Tired

Feeling extremely tired...works come one after another...
everyday i have to be awake to face things that come to me...
Just can't wait for a break...

Freedom

Finally, after 14 weeks of hard work, the system goes live today. Congratulations to the teams and myself.

I have been working day and night, weekdays and weekends, neglecting my dearest hubby, neglecting my health and life...

Now, I wish that everything will back to normal though I foresee there are more to come. I just wish for a break, to have my own time, doing my own things....

I wanna go shopping, I wanna go gym, I wanna go vacation!!!

Sunday

It's Sunday..an ordinary Sunday. But I feel so great to be at home, to have my very own quiet moment.

I have been working crazily for the pass few weeks, long hours and weekends...
My routine - wake up, work, sleep, wake up , work, sleep......

I have been not doing any house work, don't even notice or care of what hubby is doing.
With the presence of my little brother who just started his new term here, I have even neglected my hubby more...My concentration goes to my work, myself and my little brother...Thinking back, I feel so sorry to him. Hopefully one or two good meal will do him good. keke...

Work seems to get better now, although I will term going back 9 o'clock is considered earlier. Hang on for one more month, hopefully I can have a break by the time.

Great that I am home on this sunny Sunday..