TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT?

Feel like being challenge by this irresponsible and stupid person. Never know this kind of people exist. ~Not knowing what he/she supposed to know, and just pinpoint on you whenever thing happen. This kind of people make me lost my temper, lost my EQ. I feel so stupid.

Yeah..this is the challenge and pressure that I should learn to handle. It will make me a better person in both personal life and work if I am able to 'settle' this person. However, to take this challenge, I will work like hell, I need to work OT, I need to sacrifice my personal time. Is it worthy for me to do so??

Argh...seems like iIdon't have much choice. It's part of my work. Anyway I also need to take up the challenge. Yeah..he is winning but I know deep down I am the winner.

One day he will 'padan muka'..haha...sorry for cursing ppl here. ;P

The Day That I Feel Fed Up!

I wish for a vacation or even a break again.

I feel like leaving my current job.

I don't feel happy when I achieve something new in this job.

I don't feel excited with every new thing I am gonna learn here.

I feel so fed up.

I wanna stop all this.

I wanna find a new environment.

Can I? Dare I?

I am so in dilemma.

I am so in anger.

I am so in suffer.

I feel so fed up fed up fed up.

I wish to shout out and tell everybody in the office I wanna quit, then I just leave..though this would only happen in my sweet dream..

RGP Lens

Ever heard of RGP lens?

RGP stands for rigid gas permeable. GP lenses were first introduced in the late 1970s; they are actually a newer technology than soft lenses. Most GPs incorporate silicone, which makes them more flexible than PMMA. And silicone is oxygen permeable, so oxygen can pass through GP lenses, resulting in greater comfort and better eye health. GPs can also provide better vision, durability, and deposit resistance than soft contact lenses. They can be easier to clean, and since they're long-lasting, they can be less expensive in the long term than soft lenses.

Wow, enough with the long story, blah blah blah...

A month ago, my left eyes got inflammation due to wearing soft lens for long duration. I was 'force' not to wear lens for few weeks but spec. Now my eyes fully is recovered. However doc said due to the difference between my both eyes's degree is too huge, one side see thing bigger than the other, that's why I feel headache easily. I have 4 options,

1. Wear spec - but I continue to get headache

2. Wear soft lens - but I risk to get the inflammation

3. Wear RGP lens - last longer and help to reduce the power

4. Lasik - plan to but to be consider later

Today is my second day wearing the RGP lens. It's kinda hard and I can hardly open my eyes. Everytime I blink, the vision become blur. I think I will need some time to get use to it. Hope this solve my problem till I can do the lasik. :)

Mudah? Senang?

Ya, saya bercadang untuk tulis blog dalam BM. Betul betul susah la, saya sudah berkesal. ;)

Mudah? Senang? Sudah 5 hari saya berasa tertekan sebab program saya tak betul. Saya tak ada selera untuk makan, tak ada feel untuk berjenaka, tak berlalu nak makan...(sebenarnya tak la serious sangat tapi ada la). Semalam, saya nyaris kemalangan sebab asyik teringat akan program yang bodoh itu (tapi bukan salah saya, kereta itu tiba tiba potong ke lorong saya). Gosh, the language is soooo horrible!!!

Nasib baik hari ini saya berjaya menyelesaikan tekanan/masalah saya. Nampak senang macam kacang tapi bersusah payah saya buat and berfikir. Kawan kata 'programmer is like god, one click can make magic happen'. Tapi saya rasa 'when cannot make magic happen, programmer will be like dog'. 'Dog atau God'?

Dalam ringkas, saya berjanji pada sendiri, saya tak nak jadi programmer untuk kerja seterusnya. Saya mau kerja yang lebih senang and mudah. ;)

Tak tau kena mengena dengan topik Mudah tak, tapi ada perkataan Mudah atau Senang, boleh ho kawan kawan...

STRESS

How I wish I am on vacation..to a place where there is no stress, where I can relax...

Yeah, stress is haunting me lately. I get mad even with little stress. Feel sorry to those around me, where I may hurt them sometimes.

I am stress working..

I am stress financially..

I am stress finding my soul..

I am stress finding my direction..

Some say live simple life. But I was wondering how simple can life be?? Even a housewife can feel stress because of junk of housework, taking care of kids, decide meal for dinner...Who said you won't feel stress living simple life. haha...

Yeah, stress is everywhere. But I feel calm when he hold my hand, when I rest my head within his hug...I hope that one day I will have less stress. ;)