2010.01.01

Looking Back

Looking back, it has been an amazing, excting, busy and crazy year.

A year where I got married. It has been more than 10 years, but everyday I wake up feeling great to find my long life soulmate beside me. Everyday is a precious day.

A year where I got so crazy at work. Long hours, weekend at work and for once in my life I work from 830 and reach home the next day 600. A year that I got all the disappointment at work, for being spending 70% of my time at work, there is no salary increment.

A year that I travel long distance, Hong Kong. Considering it as our second honeymoon. It is so memorable.

And a year that I lost a family member, ah pek. It is of unexpected, which shock everyone in the family.

May you rest in peace, you will be always in our heart.

Looking forward, will movie 2012 become reality? I have been asking myself this question and I seems like believe it may actually come in that day. If it is, I should start thinking to quit my job and enjoy life to the fullless; and I want to be with my hubby when the day come, imagine we would be at home, sitting at our sofa watching TV until the end of the world.....

K, enough of nonsence. Foresee that it's gonna be a tough year for me particularlyin work. I have make a tough decision which I am unsure of until today, everyday I am asking myself if it is right. Anyway, tough job make me a tougher person.

Also, something that I have been thinking so long but never kick start. Hope and wish that I will make my move.

Hope that everyone has a good year ahead. Goodbye 2009, and welcome 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Friday the Christmas

Merry Christmas!!

Sis and boyfriend are here. Having a nice gathering with family. The last time the four of us - sis, me, siang and jun, gather together was during March. It's so great to get together...

Thursday

Christmas Eve!! Long weekend is just round the corner!!
Another busy day, no lunch day, hoping to complete today to-do-list.
Somehow I still save some for the weekend but great that I have 3 days of break.

Wednesday

I just wonder why, no matter how I completed each tasks on my to-do-list, it never grow lesser but longer.
One by one, I completed it daily. Sometimes I feel frustrated, sometimes I feel happy.

Today I strike off the tasks peacefully. Tomorrow it's going to be another long list again..

Tuesday

What you think might not be what you get..
Should we don't even think about it or should we just dream about it...

Monday

If only I know what to do and what I want precisely...

I am just overloaded...Nothing is fair and nothing is unfair at workplace...

Responsibility

As I grow up, I learn that the responsibilities that lie on me grow as well.

The responsibility of being a daughter, to take care of my parents, to make them happy when they are still around. But I do not know how to answer it when my mom ask me with an upset tone "Since you will be coming on Dec, you won't be coming back for next year chinese new year then". It will only happen next December and next next Chinese New Year...

The responsibility of being a sister, to take care of my little sister and brother, to keep remembering to say hello on and off by making sure that they are still well., which I might forget or to be exact neglect sometime...

The responsibility of being a wife, to take care of the man, to know and care of how he is doing everyday, which I am not doing so well. He is the one who take care of me, who take care of the household...

The responsibility of being a worker, to serve the company with all your attention, with all your time. Because client and money are always the priority and therefore meeting timeline is a must. Without the pay, what are you suppose to live on? Therefore, I spend most of time to be a worker, even meaning sacrifying your weekend. But in fact, I can be replaced within 5 minutes; my absence won't give any impact to the company, things will just move on as usual, nobody notice nothing...

Why the hell meeting timeline is always priority!!

Why the hell spending my time, risking my health, neglecting those around when I can be replaced in just 5 minutes!!

Why the hell is it so hard just to let go!!

Why the hell trapping myself at hell though in my heart I am dying to runaway!!

I just wish that life can be as simple as once I used to think...